Monday, March 19, 2012

Telling the Boys

Last Friday night as we finished getting the older boys ready for bed, we told them about what has been going on with me. I knew they both knew something was up...they are observant 7 and 5 year olds and kids in general have a radar about their parents feelings. We've had this conversation with them before with my previous experiences with cancer, so in some ways it was easier, but I still didn't want to break their sweet little hearts. Yeah we could have waited longer to tell them, but as I mentioned they are observant. I wasn't exactly being a perky mom and they could tell I was sad. I wanted to be honest with them and have them feel comfortable talking to us if they noticed I was sad or when they are sad.

When we talk to the boys about cancer, there are a few things I like to do (and these are just things that I have learned over the last almost 9 years, I'm not a child psychologist!):
1. Use the word cancer and not sick. The "c-word" may sound very scary to adults, but most children don't have that same frame of reference. If you tell them that the Survivor is "sick" they can make the connection to themselves being sick with a cold...and it's not the same thing. And to me, if you use one set of words to talk to the kids and another to talk to others, they may feel like there is something more serious going on and you are hiding something.

2. Use simple, age-appropriate terms. When the boys were 3 and 5, telling them I had cancer in my tummy instead of cervical cancer made more sense to them. And when I had surgery, we told them I'd get medicine to help me sleep, so the doctors could removed the cancer, the stuff that doesn't belong, from my body. We bring the disease down to their level. This time we have explained that the special tests are having a hard time finding the cancer, but the doctors will keep looking until they find it. No reason to go into detail about CTs, MRIs, PETs, etc; they'll just be letters they don't understand!

3. Explain there are different types of cancer. Cancer can be scary and people can die, but more and more people are living WITH cancer every day. And that's a more positive aspect of my type of thyroid cancer. We happen to know several people with cancer and we all get different kinds of treatments with different side effects. I think it's good for my boys to understand this so they can be reassured that I'll be around for a long time to remind them to clean their rooms.

4. Help them understand they can't catch it. Parents constantly remind their children to wash their hands so they don't get sick, spread germs, catch a cold. And in a child's mind cancer may fall right into this same category. What child doesn't want to be reminded that their mom can still hug and kiss them with spread disease?!

5. Be honest when they ask questions. I love to joke around with my boys, but I make sure they know that when they ask a question about cancer, they will get the truth. No matter what they ask me about cancer, I will answer them. Because as serious and as scary as this diagnosis is, they do need to know what will happen. And I feel that if they are getting answers, they will keep coming to us and not ever feel worried that they don't know the truth.

So once we explained that the thyroid cancer was back and it's very small so it's hard to find, Jack and Sam started plotting. They came up with a plan on how to find the cancer ("X-rays! All the way to the bone!" says Sam) and then go in and scoop it out (I'm imagining ice cream scoops here). I am certain they would tell my doctors the plan if given the chance. When I told them that my doctors have a very similar plan, they were THRILLED that they are as smart as my doctors!

Maybe I won't have to go all the way to Johns Hopkins, I have my own little team of doctors right here!


freenurluv said...

Wow thank you so much~ this is wonderful....I was diagnosed Sept 2010 and really didn't say too much to my children that were 3 and 7. I didn't want to upset them. I just lost my cousin on March 10th from Ovarian Cancer and so my daughter and so obviously knew something was wrong as she was only 30. it really opened the door for discussion when my now 8 1/2 year old said mommy what is cancer....not that I had a really solid answer so I will use your advice:) I'm so sorry you are having to go through the fight again but know God has a special plan and your story of hope and determination should be heard....I am sure you will kick this cancer's butt also! I have befriended you on thyca and look forward to sharing in your journey with you and supporting you along the way. Fight like a girl and go get em!!!

Laura Cardner said...

I like this advice and your approach!
My thoughts and prayers to you and your family for the next few weeks/months as you wait for the Appointment in may!